A hello!

I am back

It has been some time since I last blogged on here, and oh boy so much has happened.

The world has gone crazy due to a Global Pandemic, a deadly virus called Corona-virus caused the world to lock down back in March this year. We are now July and things are slowly opening up again, but normal is far from right now.

How are things at home?

Things have not been easy the last 4 months to say the least, the kids are off school, I have learned that I am not cut out to be a teacher… ever! There have been many tears and tantrums, mainly from me. Routine is out the window currently, I try my hardest to keep things a little normal especially with the bedtime routine. BUT lets be honest the way the world is right now its not that easy for us or our children.

William has been very challenging, his behaviour was really bad at the beginning and I was having full on melt downs and just felt like I was failing. I had such a good plan in my head how things would go when schools were announced closed. I printed out so much work for them, the school still set things up online which is great, we did the Joe Wicks P.E lessons for the first week! One thing I have always kept to which helps is having the kids up, dressed, beds made and ready first thing in the morning.

I cannot fault the school with the work they set, despite home schooling becoming an hour a day. They make regular phone calls every week, keep us up to date with what is going on at school and make sure everyone is ok. There are lots of things ready and set in place for him when he goes back in September. Including extra SEN support, courses, one on one time and a referral for CAHMS has been made. My main concern is how much is will struggle and find it hard to adjust.

For Eva its still quite normal being at home with me, shes so young she does not understand anyway. Annabelle has been great, developed a serious attitude but that’s to be expected being my daughter.

What have we been up too?

Lots of walks, and picnics, bike rides, trips to the park now they are open again, beaches, visiting people outside, baking and school work.

I have found keeping them busy is best, getting out once a day even if its for a short walk it helps a lot. Fresh air is needed. We are very lucky to have an amazing garden also, the pool, slide and trampoline keeps them outside for hours.

Mental health

My mental health has taken dips and turns, I have been up and down I wont lie. My eating and binge eating became a massive problem and I gained a stone within a month or less. I have had days were I just want to cry and hide away, I feel like I am failing as a parent. Then I have good days where I feel happier, content, we get out and have fun! Its important for me to open up to someone, I know many people are feeling the same way so we are NOT alone with this. I tried t0 come off my medication a few weeks ago and felt horrendous. I was suffering with migraines, dizzy spells constantly, I was feeling super lethargic and just not myself. I realised now is not the right time to come off my medication. I started making TikTok videos which has helped a lot, entertaining myself and others. I am not on another journey to lose 2.5 stone which is going well! And I document it everyday.

Despite what is going on in the world this has all opened my eyes, its taught me not to take little things like going to the shops for granted. Being able to hug friends and family, not having to queue for essentials. But most importantly it has brought me more precious time with my children. We have made lots of lovely memories, we have had endless cuddles- despite tantrums. And I have just really appreciated having them all under the roof with me! 6 months is a very long time for us all, and for the older two to be missing school, but having them home with me for this extra time to keep them safe has been a blessing!

When we come out the other side I am definitely going to appreciate all the little things, we wont get this time back despite how awful it is. So I cuddle my babies tight every chance I get.

Thank you for reading, see you in the next one!

Sian x

Author: Sian’sways

Hello, my name is Sian. I started this blog in 2017 after the death of our baby Betsy. I am the sort of person that finds writing things down and expressing myself helpful. But I want to express myself in so many different ways and talk about so many things including; Mental Health, Baby Loss, Fashion, Motherhood, Hauls, DIY, Beauty, Reviews and so many other things

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